We were sitting in a cafe together drinking espressos and smoking.

"You look like shit" I told her. She was just finishing off her cigarette, and stubbed it out hard. She wasn't smiling and I knew she was pissed. I didnt really care. I had reached a point where I knew the only way I would be able to end this relationship and not have to feel too guilty about it was the cowards way. I would drive her away slowly by being a total asshole. So far it was working.

"I'm wired with explosives and a gun pointed at you under the table" she said.

What The Fuck (wtf...)

Waiting....

Up until 3 hours ago, I still thought this whole surprise thing was a good idea. How could I miss N's hospital appointment tomorrow? She must be really scared. We have been together for over 4 years now, and she doesnt expect much from me, but its always even more amazing to be able to do things to surprise her.
Anyway tomorrow shes supposed to have this minor surgery, and I'm supposed to be back at work. But Im sitting here close to her dorm waiting for her to come back home so that I can surprise her.
Shes going to be really happy when I tell her that I can come with her to the clinic tomorrow.

Only problem is that her dumb phone has died, and I might end up sitting her for ages and ages. Its already 11:30 and theres no knowing how long im going to have to wait. No point trying to get into her building. I guess I can wait till about 1 am, and if I cant get in touch with her, I will go to the Novotel nearby. Sometimes surprises can really backfire!